Four years ago when Eli received the autism diagnosis, I thought I would fall apart. Not because I couldn’t handle it, but because I didn’t want my baby boy to have to deal with life being different. I didn’t want him to struggle, because I knew then and I know now how hard life is without the added pressure of a “difference” or an “abnormality” in life.
Then, God promised me wholeness and healing for my boy, and, then, here we are four years later. Progressed, yes, but still dealing with the daily issues that autism brings into his life and the lives of those around him. Still dealing with the difference.
Do I not trust God enough?
Did I hear Him wrong?
Is it just Eli’s “lot in life” to be atypical?
Well, in all transparency, maybe my trust falters and waivers a bit in the tough times.
Maybe my flesh faints when I’m waiting on a promise just like the Israelites.
Maybe my eyes are focused on the water instead of the Water Walker.
But, no. I didn’t hear God wrong. And, no. It’s not Eli’s plight to be broken; disjointed like a puzzle missing a few pieces.
It IS the will of God that my son be healed.
It IS the promise of God that he is already healed.
Psalm 103:3 tells us that He is the God who heals all our diseases.
Psalm 107:20 says, “He sends forth His word and heals them…”
Isaiah 53:4-5 foretells Jesus’ suffering at Calvary for the express purpose of salvation and healing.
But, one verse that is very telling of the will of God is the verse in Matthew 8 when the leper came to Jesus. First, the leper worshiped Jesus, and said, “Lord, you have the power to make me well, if only you wanted to.” [Matthew 8:2 CEV] Jesus, in His infinite mercy, replied with some of the greatest words to a sick body, mind, or soul:
3 Jesus put his hand on the man and said, “I want to! Now you are well.” At once the man’s leprosy disappeared. (emphasis mine)
The thing that makes me so hopeful and joyful about this verse is found in another portion of scripture:
34 So Peter opened his mouth and said: “Truly I understand that God shows no partiality…”
That means that if Jesus wanted to heal the leper, He wants to heal my son. He wants to heal you.
So, today, as I go about my day, I’m going to adopt an attitude from an evangelist with healing anointing, Dr. Danny Johnston. He said when people ask him how he is, he only speaks in Bible verses. If you see me around, and you ask me how Eli’s doing, you’ll only get one response from me: